In my world…..

In my world if I open a cupboard and something falls out on top of me, I don’t get frustrated as some might. My heart races, time stops….everything else ceases to matter…what matters is that I know in that moment that my habit will be fed. I must feed it…now…not later. At once the entire cupboard gets emptied and I purge…ahhhh….then slowly things go back in…which container to use……I have so many……it comes together….I open the cupboard……and…..nothing falls out…the clock starts again….and I feel better.